Chelsea Manning – STORY BY JAMIE LEE


THIS IS JUST COMMING OUT, IN THE NEWS…….I DON’T KNOW WHAT SHE DID, TO GO TO PRISON, BUT SHE NOW IN AN ICON, IN THE TRANSSEXUAL COMMUNITY.    WE ARE MOVING FORWARD FOR OUR ACCEPTANCE, AND FREEDOM AS TRUE TRANSSEXUAL WOMEN……AND PLEASE NOTE, WE ARE PROUD OF WHO WE ARE, AND NOT Masquerading AROUND, AND DECEIVING PEOPLE TO BELIEVE WE ARE NATEL WOMEN , FOR OUR BLOGS OR FOR MONATERY REASONS.  WE ARE PROUD OF WHO WE ARE AND WHAT WE STAND FOR………………………….JAMIE LEE – A TRANSSEXUAL WOMAN AND PROUD.                       DECEPTION I DECEPTION – IF THE SHOE FITS WEAR IT………..

 

NEW YORK — Chelsea Manning’s lack of access to hormone therapy in military prison could spark a lawsuit and potentially set a military-wide precedent for transgender servicemembers.

On Thursday, one day after she was sentenced to 35 years in prison for sending classified documents to WikiLeaks, Manning confirmed what had been suspected for years: that she identified as a woman and no longer wanted to be called Bradley. But as Manning arrived at military prison in Fort Leavenworth, Kan., officials there said that they do not offer the hormone therapy that Manning has said she wants, and which accepted medical practice says could be used to treat her diagnosed gender dysphoria.

Manning’s defense attorney David Coombs vowed Thursday to do “everything in my power to make sure they are forced” to provide her hormone therapy at Fort Leavenworth. But because the prison is citing an Army regulation banning transgender people serving in the military as its basis for denying Manning treatment, it will only provide her hormone therapy if it is forced to.

“Chelsea Manning’s refusal of treatment by the military could turn into a very, very interesting game-changer,” said Brynn Tannehill of the LGBT servicemember group SPART*A. “This is a lawsuit waiting to happen.”

The ACLU said in a statement following Manning’s announcement that denying her treatment might violate her constitutional rights.

Manning will not be eligible for parole for at least eight years, potentially leaving her without access to appropriate care for the gender dysphoria, intense stress caused by discomfort with one’s assigned gender, that a military psychologist diagnosed her with just before her arrest.

Although the military ended its Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell policy barring openly gay servicemembers in September 2011, the Army still bars transgender servicemembers as “administratively unfit.” The official Army regulation uses medically outdated terminology referring to “transvestism, voyeurism, other paraphilias, or factitious disorders, psychosexual conditions, transsexual, (or) gender identity disorder.”

Transgender servicemembers are supposed to be administratively separated from the Army, and cannot receive treatments for gender dysphoria like hormone therapy or sex-reassignment surgery. But administrative separation is not an option for soldiers sentenced to prison like Manning, whose rank will soon be reduced to Army private.

A Fort Leavenworth spokeswoman confirmed to HuffPost on Thursday that the military’s refusal to provide hormone therapy to its prisoners is derived from that official Army regulation, not simply a matter of prison policy or practice.

Army regulation stands in sharp contrast to the policies of the American Psychological Association, the American Psychiatric Association and the Endocrine Society, all of which acknowledge hormone therapy as an effective treatment for people who need to transition because of gender dysphoria.

“To deprive someone of this treatment is simply inhumane, and it’s no different than denying someone of their blood pressure medication or antibiotics,” said Lauren McNamara, an activist who exchanged Internet chats with Manning in 2009, before she sent files to WikiLeaks and before they both came out as transgender.

“Not allowing people people to have access to this is basically holding them hostage to their own bodies and denying them their autonomy,” said McNamara. “It is really no different than taking a woman and involuntarily exposing them to testosterone.”

There are a wide range of views within the LGBT community about how Manning’s decision to send files to WikiLeaks should be viewed. Some fear that her actions could be used to paint other LGBT servicemembers as traitors, and groups that are generally referred to as mainstream, like the Human Rights Campaign, kept their distance throughout his trial. To other activists, however, she is a hero.

Nevertheless, the military’s post-sentencing treatment of Manning seems to be uniting LGBT groups. The Human Rights Campaign issued a statement calling for her to receive appropriate care.

Tannehill was careful to state that Manning’s identity does not mitigate the charges on which Manning was convicted. But, she said, “I want for any prisoner to be treated with accepted medical standards of ethics, and that’s regardless of what she did.”

The Palm Center, a think tank at the University of California, Santa Barbara, was awarded a $1.35 million grant to study transgender military service in July. The Palm Center’s research also laid the groundwork for the repeal of Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell.

But that’s about as much progress has been made on official acceptance of open transgender servicemembers, Tannehill said.

Talks with military officials are “informal, below the water lines, one-on-one,” and she said that even under the best of circumstances, she can only imagining the Army repealing its outdated regulation in five years.

Tannehill and some others in the transgender community are concerned that the intense publicity around Manning’s decision to come out as a woman could set back the cause of allowing transgender servicemembers to serve openly.

“I don’t know if this is going to be the best test case for that both in terms of publicity and focus,” said Nathaniel Frank, who wrote a widely-cited book about Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell in 2009. He doubts that a lawsuit aimed at Manning’s prison conditions would have an impact on the wider Army regulation.

Still, he said, “I do think because of the publicity around Manning, this could be a test case for how transgender people are treated when incarcerated.”

Access to hormone therapy and sex reassignment surgery are contested issues far beyond the military. Many state prisons do not provide one or both, and the Federal Bureau of Prisons only reached a settlement in 2011 to allow prisoners to start hormone therapy while incarcerated. Transgender inmates everywhere, meanwhile, face disproportionate exposure to the rape endemic to America’s prisons.

“I do think the publicity focused around this, even though some of it is negative, both reflects the pace of change and could help focus attention on the experience and needs of transgender people,” Frank said.

A MESSAGE FROM JAMIE LEE…………….


 

 

 

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A MESSAGE TO MY COMMUNITY:

 

I have hid, struggled my whole life, to exist and to be.  I have transitioned and have crossed so many obstacles.  I have broken down walls. I have cried, suffered, and hated myself, over and over again.

I have despised my mirror, my image.  I have been on hormones and estrogen for over 7 years now!  I am being treated medically aw a transsexual woman (NOT A NATAL WOMAN)

I am at the stealth of my Transition, other than having the SRS.  I am happy with myself for the first time in so many years.  I know who I am!  I am Jamie Lee, a gift that was born differently, with Masculinity and Femininity.   More feminine that masculine!  

What is outrageous to me is the idiots, in my own Trans Community, who deceive the public and society into thinking that they were born, as a natal female, whether, it be by deceit, photos or words. We should be proud of who, we should be or need to be,  instead of why can’t we be!

Sure we have a right to identify ourselves as women, but when it comes to friends and especially relationships, we have a responsibility to identify ourselves as being born males in life, and educate them about our plight.

I also believe, It is highly disrespect to natal born females, that we suggest that we fit into the same category.    BECAUSE IT IS IMPOSSIBLE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why can’t we be proud of who we are, and what we have gone through in our transitions to become divinely Feminine………………..

I am Jamie Lee and I am proud that I am a Transsexual Woman, and have come this far.

You all know who I am talking about !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

Jamie Lee

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WHAT WOULD I DO AYN RAND ?

I would give it my best attempt, but as my knees buckled from it’s weight.  I would try to figure it out, what to do with it !

Do I smash it, or throw it off a cliff, but then the good dies with the evil ?

Do I try to cleanse it, to rid it of the filth and denigration, that I have felt carrying it?

Do I drape it in a Burka, so the femininity  and the Beauty of the sphere can no longer be seen?

Do I toss it into the darkness of the Abyss?

Why is it that only a man can carry the weight of the world, and not a woman?

Should I redefine it,  and instead of  Mankind call it Human kind?

Should I set it down and let the “Dung Beetles” roll it around?

Do I roll it through a car wash. and cleanse it of it’s Discrimination, Racism, Sexism, Intolerance and Bullying?

People’s happiness is upon my shoulders, should I make them happy  by continuing to carry it, or should I make myself happy,  and set it down?

I THINK I WILL SET IT ON A PEDISTAL, AND OBSERVE IT A LITTLE WHILD LONGER

WHY DID YOU POSE THAT QUESTION, AYN RAND, AND NOT ANSWER IT YOUR SELF !

I AM JAMIE LEE

AND THIS IS MY CRYSTAL CONNECTION

NOBODY’S GONNA BREAK MY STRIDE – NO ONE !


DISCRIMINATION – BULLYING – SEXISM – INTOLERANCE – RACISM

THE CRYSTAL CONNECTION IS DEDICATED TO ENDING HATRED

This song is “DEDICATED”  to ME

BECAUSE NO ONE WILL BREAK MY STRIDE –  FROM THIS DAY ON !

I will fight to end suicide caused by hatred and intolerance

WATCH  WHAT I DO

I AM JAMIE LEE

Won’t you join me ?

FROM CHILDHOOD’S HOUR, I HAVE NOT BEEN AS OTHERS WERE, I HAVE NOT SEEN AS OTHERS SAW, I COULD NOT BRING MY PASSIONS FROM A COMMON SPRING – SEXUALITY HAS TO CONFORM TO ALL LAWS AND CUSTOMS, NO MATTER HOW ILLOGICAL IT IS OR HOW MUCH HYPROCASY IT MAY GIVE RISE

JAMIE LEE


There once was a girl

Who felt her pain

She had a life, but had no name

I look at you

I know what you see ,when you look at me

I know, But do you know,  what’s inside?

The part of me that I must hide

That you, made me, hold deep, deep inside

Do you know what you’d see,  if you deeper inside of me?

DO YOU ?

I AM THERE !

I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THERE, AND THAT’S WHERE I WILL ALWAYS BE !

WHEN YOU LOOK INSIDE OF ME !

Do you have vision problems ? Do you?  Myopia, near-sightedness ?, Do you need glasses,  a magnifying glass, binoculars a telescope ?

WELL FIGHT IT !

LOOK DEEPER, LOOK GOD DAMN DEEPER !

I wouldn’t want you to miss out on a really Beautiful person !

AND WHEN YOU DON’T, YOU MADE ME CRY!

OR MADE ME DIE !

At times in my life when I feel severely handicapped can be pretty difficult for me to handle sometimes.

I mean my friends and loved ones don’t want to accept,  and go places with me because they are too embarrassed to be seen with me.

And people think I am stupid , because I don’t walk, talk and look like they do !

I am a lot smarter then you will ever know.

It’s not my fault, I was born this way!

No matter what we do together, we always have fun.

And when you see my smile, that’s how you know I LOVE YOU !

DO YOU KNOW WHAT ?

I AM NOT YOUR HANDICAP ! YOU ARE MINE !

Jamie Lee

Your son, Daughter, Wife, Husband, Doctor,  Lawyer, and Indian Chief

The person that,  some day may save your life !

THE CRYSTAL CONNECTION WELCOMES – 4,000 – FOUR THOUSAND VISITORS – FROM 59 – DIFFERENT COUNTRIES !


I am proud to announce that the Crystal Connection, has reached 4,000 visitors, from 51 Countries around the World.

I have published 177, posts, pertaining to GLBT Education and Acceptance.  My Crystal Connection stands for Freedom,  Acceptance of all people, races and religions.  I have worked in Law Enforcement to always protect the rights of others, the rights of others that were not afforded to me in my own transition.

I an my Crystal Connection, does not accept or promote the statement that ” Our Sexuality has to be without fault ! And that must function in strict conformity with all customs & laws !  No matter how illogical they are. and how much hypocrisy they may give rise”!

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I PROMOTE ACCEPTANCE AND FREEDOM FOR ALL PEOPLE AROUND THE WORLD!

I PROMOTE ENDING DISCRIMINATION, BULLYING, INTOLLERANCE. SEXISM, RACISM !

I BELIEVE IN RELIGIOUS FREEDOMS.

I PROMOTE EGALITARIAN PEOPLE, WHO HAVE EGALTARIAN, IDEAS ABOUT GENDER !

I WILL CONTINUE TO EDUCATE AND ADVOCATE, FOR THE GLBT COMMUNITY AND OUR FREEDOMS.  I WILL CONTINUE TO EDUCATE ABOUT THE INTERSEXED COMMUNITY.

CRYSTAL CONNECTION NON-DISCRIMINATION POLICY – 2-26-2013

I AM MY CRYSTAL CONNECTION – PROHIBIT DISCRIMINATION AGAINST, AND HARRASSMENT,

OF ANYONE BECAUSE OF RACE, COLOR, NATIONAL OR ETHNIC ORIGIN,

AGE, RELIGION, SEX, SEXUAL ORIENTATION,

GENDER IDENTITY & EXPRESSION !

There will be zero tolerance for sites that show or promote, hidden agendas, moralistic behavior, BDSM, pornography, lewd or lascivious behaviur, she-male, sissyfication,  clown porn or any disrespectful photos. 

ADVOCATCY  & EDUCATION

I have be an Advocate in the Transgendered Community for approximately 15 years, during my transition.  I attended Renaissance Transgendered support groups and even taught at them.  I have attended numerous Transgendered Conferences in the Eastern Region of Pa.  I have previously ran a Transgendered support group in the Past.  I have experience in psychology, criminal justice, Domestic Violence, Child abuse, Rape, Stalking,  and much, much more.

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RESPONSIBILITIES OF A TEACHER AND ADVOCATE IN THE GLBT-INTERSEX COMMUNITY

AS AN ADVOCATE YOU MUST BE AWARE OF WHO YOU ARE TALKING TOO.  IS IT A WIFE, SIGNIFICANT OTHER, SON, DAUGHTER, OR FRIEND OF THE TRANSGENDERED INDIVIDUAL.  YOU MUST BE SENSITIVE OF THE AGE, AND GENDER.  SUICIDE IS HIGH IN OUR COMMUNITY, SO YOU MUST INSURE THAT YOU PROVIDE ACCURATE FACTS, AVIOD OPINIONS.  WE MUST REALIZE AT ALL TIMES, WE DON’T KNOW WHO IS READING OUR STORIES.

WE MUST INSURE THAT WE PROVIDE NOTHING BUT FACTS AND REALISTIC STORIES ALONG WITH EDUCATION.

MY QUALIFICATIONS

COLLEGE VILLANOVA AND PENN STATE, CRIMINAL JUSTICE, PSYCHOLOGY, DOMESTIC VIOLENCE, OCCULT, RAPE, CHILD MOLESTATION, MEGAN’S LAW, OUT LAW MOTORCYCLE CLUBS, INVESTIGTIONS, SEARCH AND SEIZURE, CURTURAL AWARENESS, RACEST GROUPS, FEMALE OFFENDERS IN TREATMENT, MH/MR ISSUES, GLBT SUPPORT AND ADVOCACY, CLOSE QUARTERS COMBAT, PRESSURE POINT CONTROL, AND MUCH,  MUCH MORE.   I TAUGHT COLLEGE CLASSES, I AM A CERTIFIED TRAINER IN ANTI TERRIORISM.  I WAS A PRIVATE DETECTIVE, ALONG WITH 30 YRS LAW ENFORCEMENT. 

THE FIRST CHAPTER OF MY UPCOMMING BOOK WAS COMPLETED BY: WRITER, PLAYWRITE, AND AUTHOR. LISA BUFFINGTON !

SHE AND I ARE TEAMING UP FOR A PROJECT IN PUBLIC SPEAKING, WHICH WILL COVER MANY TOPICS, INCLUDING GLBT, INTOLLERANCE, DISCRIMINATION AND ALOT MORE !

I HAVE BEEN RECENTLY RECRUTED BY A MODELING AGENCY, AS A MODEL, ACTOR,  AND VOICE OVER.  I HAVE ATTENDED THE PA. MODEL & TALENT EXPO, ON CAMERA WORKSHOPS, ETC.

FINALLY I MAKE THIS OFFER.  IF ANYONE THAT VISITS MY CRYSTAL CONNECTION,  HAS ANYONE, HUSBAND, WIFE, CHILD, SIGNIFICANT OTHER, WHO NEEDS HELP, REFERENCES, SUPPORT, OR ADVICE.

PLEASE CONTACT ME

Jamie Lee – Crystal Connection

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—– GAZEBO – LIFE – DEATH – MY FREEDOM – MY RELATIVES – THEIR RESPONSES-NUMBER 2


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THIS IS THE SECOND POST , RELATING TO MY RELATIVES.  IT IS ESPECIALLY EDUCATIONAL FOR THE TRANSGENDERED COMMUNITY, IN REFERENCE TO OUR ACCEPTANCE.  IT SHOWS THAT THERE IS A MANNER TO TELL PEOPLE ABOUT US, WITH RESPECT AND DIGNITY.  DON’T JUST THROW YOURSELF AT PEOPLE.

WHAT IS OCCURING HERE,  IS ONE OF THE MOST EXCITING THINGS,  IN MY LIFE.  THE ONLY THING I AM SAD ABOUT, IS NOT COMMING OUT SOONER.

THESE RELATIVES ARE VERY CLOSE TO ME.  AND THEY HAVE ALWAYS BEEN SPECIAL!  THESE ARE THE REPONSES I AM GETTING:

From: Cindy

Date: Wed, Feb 6, 2013 at 10:32 PM

Subject: Hello!

Just wanted to say Hi! and let you know that I was thinking about you.  By the way, I like your pictures, you look great!  I will keep reading your blog, when time allows.

I actually found out that you had a blog from my mother because Diane talked to Sharon and my Mom at the funeral for Uncle Ron.  So, I was curious and goggled your blog and was impressed with it.  When I find time I want to read more so that I can educate my self and understand what you went through and continue to go through.  You did a great job with the website!  I really enjoyed reading your story/journal and have learned a lot just from that.

I am sorry that your children are not accepting.  From what I read, it seems like they want to keep it quiet from their friends and family.  It must be hard for them.  How is “M” with all of this?  If I am getting too personal, please let me know.  I will not be insulted, but just was curious because I am sure it was or is hard for her.

I am going to my Mother’s house with Dakota on Saturday and would love to get together with you, if that is ok or you fill up to it.  We could meet at the Coventry Mall, shop and have lunch.  And yes, you can dress like Jamie.  Think about it.  I would really like to see you, keep in touch and give you the support you deserve.  I think we could have a really good time, but if you’re not up to it, I really understand.  Just let me know by Friday night if you can.

Take Care,

Cindy

From: Cindy

Date: Wed, Feb 6, 2013 at 11:06 PM

Subject: Hey, Hey, Hey!

I just sent you an email and went on to your website afterword.  Guess I should have done things in reverse!  Thanks for posting my emails.  You are probably fighting a different battle when it comes to relatives not willing to accept you for who you are.  This is a tough subject for the average person.

I work for a really strict company, but truly have fun going to work every day.  My company will not tolerate negative comments about race, religion, sexual preference etc.  We have quite a few gay people at work, which can be difficult at times.  The minute an inappropriate comment is made it is dealt with.  We just can’t do it.  It has definitely taught all of us that everyone is different; we don’t have to like someone, but have to keep our thoughts to ourselves and/or accept the person.  I really love my job and the policies put in place.  They really protect each and every one of us.  Just thought I would pass this on.

Anyhow, you are in one hell of a tough situation.  Most people, especially older ones are set in their ways and just don’t get it or are not willing to try to understand something like this.  You know that.  Most people for the most part are not able to adapt to change very well.  My company works with us to achieve acceptance, change, etc.  I am proud of myself to have achieved understanding of people that are different from me (we have different culture events), accepting people for who they are, and not being judgmental.  Trust me, I would not be working there if I thought or did anything against our policies.  This is definitely a job that I truly enjoy going to each and every day.

By the way, would it be okay to call you sometime soon?  It’s okay sending emails, but I would really like to talk to you.  Promise me that you will consider lunch/shopping.  I need a few things, but would settle for lunch.   Boy, once I get started, I just don’t stop talking.  I was called “Chatty Cathy” as a child.  Stay in touch.

Take Care,

Cindy

MY RESPONSE TO HER:

By the way, No question is too personal. It would be fun getting together with you   You can e-mail, you can call , You can be my friend.  You would be amazed at the things that are occurring.   Hey I sent Carol and Diane my blog, and am asking that they respond with their comments and opinions.   It’s important.  I will also post it on my blog.   Maybe I can teach you some make-up tips!   Just kidding.  I would love to go to lunch or shopping with you………..WHO PAYS?    Ha ha       My autograph is actually on sale for two weeks.

Everything depends on this storm that is hitting us tonight into tomorrow.

Please keep in touch..

If you want call me tonight………….. After 6:30 p.m.  Or another night.

Chatty Cathy, hmmmmmmmmmmm.  Interesting………………..

Jamie Lee

I ASK THAT PEOPLE PAY ATTENTION TO WHAT SHE SAID ABOUT HER COMPANY POLICIES!    WE ARE MOVING FORWARD IN OUR FREEDOM AND ACCEPTANCE.

THE NEXT FEW MONTHS ARE SPECIAL TO ME.  LISA BUFFINGTON AND I ARE TEAMING UP TO DO “PUBLIC SPEAKING” IN BUSINESSES, COLLEGES, AND SCHOOLS.    IT WILL BE ABOUT DISCRIMINATION, SEXISM, TOLERENCE AND WISDOM !!

ALSO, I AM PROUD TO ANNOUNCE THAT VERY SOON MY BLOG WILL HAVE BEEN VISITED BY 4000 PEOPLE, FROM OVER 50 DIFFERENT COUNTRIES,  AROUND THE WORLD!  THANK YOU ALL !!!!!

AND LASTLY, TO ALL MY RELATIVES WHO DO VISIT THIS CRYSTAL CONNECTION, THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART FOR YOUR UNDERSTANDING AND ACCEPTANCE.    REMEMBER THIS!   I WAS BORN THIS WAY, THE PERSON, YOU HAVE KNOWN IS ONLY DRESSED DIFFERENTLY!

JAMIE LEE

—– GAZEBO – LIFE – DEATH – MY FREEDOM – MY RELATIVES – THEIR RESPONSES-NUMBER 1


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SINCE LAST SATURDAY, AND MY RELATIVES ASKING & LEARNING ABOUT ME!  BEING TRANSSEXUAL,

I HAVE DECIDED TO POST THEIR RESPONSES!

 

Hi Jamie,

Wow!  It’s been a long time and a lot has changed.  I am sure you know which cousin I am because I don’t think there is another Cindy but just in case, Kate and Sam’s Cindy

Over the past few years I have heard about what you are going through and today was able to find your website/blog.  I will not begin to say I understand what you are going through, however, I learned a lot from visiting your website.

I do not pass judgment and truly wish you well.  After reading your journey etc., my heart was broken and I was left feeling very sad.  It is a difficult situation to be in, especially after living a tortured life with such a big secret.  I can’t even imagine what you went through (especially as a child) all of those years, but I give you a lot of credit for being a great person and living a good life.  Most of all, I have the utmost respect for you “coming out.”  That’s really the only way to freedom.  Hopefully, one day you will be accepted for who you are today and live the life you have only dreamed about.

For the most part I am a very busy person.   I work a 40 hour job and more at times, am raising my almost 11 year old grandson (we adopted), who suffers from PTSD and a magnitude of other problems and just don’t have a lot of free time.  With that said, I would love to chat with you via email.  I don’t do Facebook etc.  Too busy.  I would like to offer my support and lend an ear when you need one.

You were always my favorite guy cousin and I will miss Jim, but am certain I would like Jamie just as much and who knows, maybe even more. Jaime, you deserve to be happy.  Hang in there, stay strong and write back!   Take care of yourself.  Got to get the kid to bed………………..

Sending My Love,

Cindy

AND TO HER I SAY!!!!    OMG,  THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH FOR YOUR KIND AND LOVING E-MAIL!   YOU DON’T HAVE ANY IDEA, HOW YOUR WORDS MADE ME FEEL.   I REALLY DIDN’T FEEL YOU WOULD HAVE SAID ANYTHING DIFFERENT!   THANK YOU AGAIN,  SO VERY MUCH…………………………………………………JAMIE LEE

 

Jamie

Thanks for getting back to me so quick and just to clear things up…………………….I am not sad because of who you were and who you are trying to become.  I am endlessly sad that the average person can not be open to change.

You are more than welcome to post whatever I say to you via email.  Please don’t take my name out of it!  I sincerely have no fear of what I believe in.  I would be proud to see my name supporting you and all of the other people going through the same thing.  I openly support what you have been through and are trying to achieve.

It’s getting late for me, but I really wish you the best.  Would love to see you sometime.  I live in Bucks County, but visit often in Phoenixville, so may be we could do lunch and/or shopping.  I would love it.  Going though my own personal hell.  Miss you!

Take care,

Cindy

 

Cindy,

You don’t know how much your acceptance, and comments mean to me.   As you read my blog and understand more, you will know why!

For you to say that I can actually use your name, is huge to me.  My God, Thank you so much for your understanding, acceptance,  and support of me!

I have always been close to you………………………

Thank you

Jamie

 

 

GAZEBO – LIFE – DEATH – MY FREEDOM – MY RELATIVES


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A SECRET!  WHEN ONE PERSON KNOWS , IT STILL MAY BE A SECRET!

WHEN TWO PEOPLE KNOW, THE WORLD KNOWS!

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DON’T LET BE DIE-WITHOUT LETTING ME LIVE

JAMIE LEE

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THE LAST WEEK HAS BEEN VERY TRYING, AND INTENSE FOR ME.    LISA BUFFINGTON – A POET, PLAYWRITE, WRITER, AND A GOOD FRIEND OF MINE,  HAS COMPLETED THE FIRST CHAPTER OF MY BOOK,  SHE IS WRITING ABOUT MY LIFE!

THE MODELING AGENCY, WHO RECRUTED ME, IS NOW SETTING IT UP,  FOR ME, TO GO BEFORE, A CASTING DIRECTOR, IN MODELING AND ACTING.

LISA BUFFINGTON,  AND I,  ARE MAKING ARRANGEMENTS,  TO DO PUBLIC SPEAKING, IN SCHOOLS, COLLEGES, AND PRIVATE COMPANIES.

AND THEN, OUT OF NOWHERE, I HEARD,  ABOUT THE DEATH OF A VERY CLOSE UNCLE, OF MINE!   AND,  I WENT TO HIS FUNERAL WITH,  MY WIFE,  ON SATURDAY, FEBRUARY 2ND 2013,  AND THEN,  AFTERWARDS , A FUNCTION  WAS HELD , AT A LOCAL FIRE COMPANY.

HE HAPPENED TO BE ONE OF THE CLOSEST TO ME,  DURING MY LIFE. HE AND I HAD A BOND,  THAT CAN’T BE EXPLAINED IN COMMON WORDS.  I RESPECTED HIM AND HE RESPECTED ME.   I LOVED HIM AND HE LOVED ME.

My mother, had 4 other Sisters, and five brothers, so I was fortunate, to have many relatives, WHO were VERY close, and all loved each other!  And,  that did not include all my Cousins,  and then their children , everyone had integrity, and cared about each other.   And through out the years our bonds  were very,  very close!

SO HERE I WAS,  DRESSED IN DRAG AS A GUY.  MANY RELATIVES WERE THERE.  IT ALMOST FELT LIKE A FAMILY REUNION.

AS I WAS SITTING THERE, I FELT MANY SUTLE EYES, GLANCING TOWARDS ME.    AND WHEN I WALKED UP TO THE BAR FOR A DRINK, ONE OF MY COUSINS SAID TO ME:  “SO IS IT TRUE, WHAT I AM HEARING ABOUT YOU?”   I REPLIED “YES” 

WE HAD A WONDERFULL CONVERSATION.  IN FACT IT WAS MORE THAN WONDERFUL, IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL CONVERSATION!

SO NEEDLESS TO SAY,  WORD SPREAD LIKE WILDFIRE, AND,  I HAD MORE OF MY RELATIVES COMMING TO ME, AND ASKING.  SO I TOLD THEM!

THIS MORNING WHEN I LOOKED AT MY E-MAIL, THERE I SAW ONE FROM MY COUSIN, AND IT READS AS FOLLOWS:

Names have been changed to protect the innocent !!!

Hi Jamie,

Wow!  It’s been a long time and a lot has changed.  I am sure you know which cousin I am because I don’t think there is another Cindy but just in case, Kate and Sam’s Cindy

Over the past few years I have heard about what you are going through and today was able to find your website/blog.  I will not begin to say I understand what you are going through, however, I learned a lot from visiting your website.

I do not pass judgment and truly wish you well.  After reading your journey etc., my heart was broken and I was left feeling very sad.  It is a difficult situation to be in, especially after living a tortured life with such a big secret.  I can’t even imagine what you went through (especially as a child) all of those years, but I give you a lot of credit for being a great person and living a good life.  Most of all, I have the utmost respect for you “coming out.”  That’s really the only way to freedom.  Hopefully, one day you will be accepted for who you are today and live the life you have only dreamed about.

For the most part I am a very busy person.   I work a 40 hour job and more at times, am raising my almost 11 year old grandson (we adopted), who suffers from PTSD and a magnitude of other problems and just don’t have a lot of free time.  With that said, I would love to chat with you via email.  I don’t do Facebook etc.  Too busy.  I would like to offer my support and lend an ear when you need one.

You were always my favorite guy cousin and I will miss Jim, but am certain I would like Jamie just as much and who knows, maybe even more. Jaime, you deserve to be happy.  Hang in there, stay strong and write back!   Take care of yourself.  Got to get the kid to bed………………..

Sending My Love,

Cindy

AND TO HER I SAY!!!!    OMG,  THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH FOR YOUR KIND AND LOVING E-MAIL!   YOU DON’T HAVE ANY IDEA, HOW YOUR WORDS MADE ME FEEL.   I REALLY DIDN’T FEEL YOU WOULD HAVE SAID ANYTHING DIFFERENT!   THANK YOU AGAIN,  SO VERY MUCH…………………………………………………J

SO IT IS TIME FOR ME TO MAKE A STATMENT TO MY RELATIVES

AS YOU VISIT MY BLOG AND GET TO KNOW ME REMEMBER I AM THE SAME PERSON

I AM THE SAME PERSON WHOM YOU’VE KNOWN AND LOVED,  AS I LOVED YOU!

JUST IN DIFFERENT CLOTHS

SOME OF YOU MAY LAUGH, SOME OF YOU MAY GIGGLE

SOME OF YOU WILL MAKE CHARACHTER JUDGEMENTS

SOME OF YOU MAY HAVE QUESTIONS, WHICH I PROUDLY WILL ANSWER

AND I TRULY FEEL THAT,  ALL OF YOU WILL EMBRACE, LOVE AND ACCEPT ME,  FOR WHO I HAVE BEEN SINCE BIRTH

AND LASTELY REMEMBER THIS!

I FEEL BLESSED IN MY LIFE TO HAVE RELATIVES LIKE YOU!

I LOVE YOU ALL

JAMIE LEE

A/K/A

JIM

LASTLY ALL OF YOU NEED TO UNDERSTAND

THIS IS NOT SOMETHING I MADE UP

IT WAS CAUSED BY GENETICS

THE MOMENT I STEPPED INTO THE GAZEBO, IN THE PHOTO ABOVE, I SCREAMED TO THE WORLD THAT I WAS FREE

FOR INFINITY

CURTSEY

————————- I LIVE IN THE ABYSS ————- JAMIE LEE


I have searched and searched to find a song,  that is about me!  I have just found it!   I KNOW NOW, THAT THIS IS MY LIFE, AND THE WAY I HAVE FELT,  AS A TRANSSEXUAL WOMAN !!!   OVER MY YEARS OF TEARS.

LET ME LIVE ! BEFORE YOU LET ME DIE !

JAMIE LEE

BECAUSE IT HAPPENS TO BE THE SADDEST EXISTANCE EVER

BUT I WILL SURVIVE

EVERY PICTURE AND PHOTO, IN THIS VIDEO,  IS ME AND HOW I HAVE FELT SINCE MY CHILDHOOD

ALONE IN THIS NIGHTMARE