WHY CAN’T WE BE FREE BY: JAMIE LEE


CURTSEY

 

 

MY PERSPECTIVE

 

So many of us have suffered the loss of family in becoming
the human beings we were meant to be.

There were so many times when I hesitated and questioned the cost of transition, not only the financial burden but the true cost we all pay in losing so much of our former lives,
because, others simply cannot accept that their reality isn’t necessarily our
reality.

And it is in our own reality, and not theirs, in which each of us must live in order to survive.  We have all struggled to exist in the Lie because we were all born with an identity that did not match our bodies. All of us have gone to extreme measures to help others love us by striving desperately to live their expectations for, and of, us. Some of us have even
managed to live out nearly our entire lives existing on the edge of sanity for the
sake of acceptance and what passes for love in our society.

I don’t have  that kind of strength and I discovered that I didn’t need “that kind” of
love, nor did I love anyone else so much that I was willing to sacrifice my sanity and eventually my life simply because they couldn’t accept me for who  I  am.

So I quit questioning the cost of transition because I decided that what I was really “buying” was my own life.

There’s a quote I like from a movie character that has often been satirized in the media (most often on radio shows). The movie was    “Shawshank Redemption”, the character was Red (played by Morgan Freeman) and  the quote is simply this “GET BUSY LIVING OR GET BUSY DYING” . I spent most of my life trying to sit on the fence between the two and what’s funny about that is that there isn’t any there!

There is life and there is death and nothing in between the two. and the choice was mine to make. There is no pain in death; it’s one of the reasons so many of us look to make it our choice. There is no love, no anger, no fear, no humiliation, no rejection, no hate, no depression, no loneliness, the list goes on for what there “isn’t” in death and it’s a very long list because it incorporates everything in life…everything.

We have all made that choice and sometimes we struggle but we’re here and that means our realities exist and are just as valid as those of the people who would deny us for the sake of their own comfort.
None of us need ever face this kind of battle again alone and isolated, nor need we ever doubt that finding our true selves and living as we choose to present ourselves is ever wrong, it isn’t. For those who find they cannot live with us as we are, then let them live without us and in time they will discover the loss and feel the; emptiness left where our love used to be.

It’s a void that cannot be filled by righteous indignation, self-serving feelings of betrayal,or immature embarrassment at the life-celebrating actions of another. It’s a
void that will last a lifetime and be felt by the generation who follows and inherits the actions of their parents.

And it is to them that we must show the most patience and love because it is through no fault of their own that they were born in an age of intolerance and self-serving egocentrism. Look to the future when your grandchildren have grown up hearing about this mystery person, maybe half remembered, which became someone else and was shunned for doing so.

I promise when they become young adults  (teenagers off to college etc.) that they will contact you because, if nothing else, the curiosity will drive them crazy. It’s then that they will come  to know You as you would like them to know you and not as those around them may have portrayed you.

You are a wonderful, courageous, and loving person so smile, knowing that we’re here and we care and make this your motto:

Noli nothis permittere te terere (Don’t let the bastards get you down).

JAMIE LEE – A Transsexual woman…………………….

DECEPTION – JAMIE LEE


MY OPINION – FACT OR CRAP

We in the Transgendered Community, have come a long way, recently, in Education, Laws, Acceptance,

and freedom, by leaps and bounds!

EVEN WITH THE LABELS AND TERMS USED

A few years ago, naturally born women were called “Genetic Females” and we were referred as Cross-dressers, in the Transgendered Community,   I and some others are called “Transsexuals”

Then an intense study was done by the Medical and Scientific Community, and they found that,

Trans-sexuality is caused by “Genetics” !

Hmmmmm.  Happy, Happy, Joy, Joy !  Now I have the reason I was born this way, an answer if been seeking all my life!

AND IT POINTS OUT,  THAT I AM A FEMALE BORN IN THE WRONG BODY!!!!!!

(INDIVIDUALS IN THIS COMMUNITY CAN PLAY WITH VERBAGE ALL THEY WANT}

BUT THE FACT ARE WE ARE NOT, NATAL WOMEN !!!!!

When the above Study was completed, it then allowed us transsexuals to refer to ourselves as Genetic Woman, Justifiably so!

So this changes the terminology in the following manner:

1. A naturally born woman is now referred to as a “NATAL WOMAN”

2. Transsexual woman are and can be referred to as “GENETIC WOMAN”

BUT, WE ARE NOT NATAL WOMEN, AND TO DECEIVE ANY ONE, IN PUBLIC, ESPECIALLY IN THE TRANSGENDERED COMMUNITY IS WRONG !!!!!!!!!   And especially to rely on the ignorance of the public, where they don’t understand the terms, into thinking we are “NATAL FEMALES”

I EVEN TOOK MY OPINION TO THE NEXT STEP, AND CALLED A FEW OF MY LONG TERM FRIENDS IN OUR COMMUNITY AND ASKED THEIR OPINION!

HERE IS WHAT THEY SAID:

1. They agreed with what I said above.

2.  They said it was ok to identify ourselves in public, as being born female and on the internet, etc, which I agree with.

3.  We all agreed. that we can refer to us as females, but the moment it becomes a friendship with anyone, we need to be honest and truthful, and not deceive them into thinking we are “NATALLY BORN WOMAN”

AND I SAY, EXPECIALLY WHEN A PERSON IS TRANSGENDERED, AND PLAYS WITH WORDS, TO DECEIVE US, AS SISTERS IN THE COMMUNITY, ABOUT THEIR TRANSITION!

IT IS IGNORANT AND DISRESPECTFULL TO US AND TO NATAL WOMAN!

Jamie Lee – Genetic Transsexual Woman

GLBT ADOVOCATE

NOTICE:

I AND MY CRYSTAL CONNECTION IS ABOUT EDUCATION AND SUPPORT!  I AM GOING TO BE BOLD ENOUGH TO SAY , I KNOW EVERYTHING THERE IS ABOUT THE TRANSGENDERED COMMUNITY.

I APPOLOGIZE FOR MY BRASHNESS SOMETIMES, BUT I THINK THAT COMES FROM,  BEING EX-LAW ENFORCEMENT FOR 30 YEARS.  IF ANYONE DISAGREES WITH ANY STORY, STATEMENT, OR OPINION SEEN ON THE “CRYSTAL CONNECTION”   I INVITE YOU TO CORRECT ME, OR SAY WHERE I AM WRONG

Thank you – Jamie Lee

OH, by the way, I want to warn you!

Don’t ever get into a pissing contest with a skunk!  You will always lose!

and

Never try to “BULLSHIT a “BULLSHITTER”

MASK OR MIRROR


In our transition,  and for our own acceptance, the anger, sadness and intensity, can at times be overwhelming !
In my case, sometimes to the point of insanity.
The individual who wrote this, has been a Dear friend of mine, for approximately 20 years.
THESE WORDS MAKE ME CRY!
These words reflect me, and probably a lot of us, struggling in our Community, to be free, to be accepted and to be heard.
To my Dear friend who wrote this, and submitted it for my blog, I say to you, THANK YOU.
THIS POST IS IN HONOR OF YOU
Jamie Lee
Not long ago, a couple of months now, it was time to don a mask for “fat Tuesday” and celebrate Mardi Gras.  There are other times when we put on a mask, like Halloween, New Year’s eve parties or any masquerade ball.  There are times when we try to deceive others as to who might be behind the mask.  There are those in our society, unfortunately, who will wear a mask to hide their identity for illicit purposes.  Sometimes we wear a mask to hide and become someone else such as a political figure, action figure  or cartoon character.
Now I stand before a mirror.  Am I creating another mask as I apply my foundation and use color sticks to create a more feminine shape?  Maybe a little powder and blush will make me appear happy if not content.  This reminds me of a movie, “What lies beneath?”  No, I’m not going to the depths of the ocean.  What I might be doing is much more dangerous.  That statement reminds me of my granddaughter.  When ever she did not want to do something when a very young child, she would exclaim, That’s dangerous!”  Is it dangerous to explore the depths of your being?  Water is clear, deep water appears blue just like space, so this calls for blue eye shadow.   And yes, blue eye shadow is back in vogue.  The light brown eye liner and blue shadow bring out the blue specks of my hazel eyes.  Use those eyes, what do I see?  What or who is in the mirror?  The eyes sparkle, they are not empty or dead.  Okay, I am alive, but all that foundation did nothing to hide the deep lines.  Grandmother didn’t have botox.  She didn’t use much makeup, ever.  She called them her life lines.  Are these life lines?  I know what kind of a life she had.  Does the number and depth of the wrinkles tell the story of anger and frustration?  Could it be that if her life or mine was lived differently that there would be no lines?  Well, maybe, smaller ones.
Now to put on the finishing touches of mascara, lip liner and gloss.  How strange, the right eye has long curved lashes and the left eye has nearly none.  Funny, when I was young and growing up all the women in the family used to say what wonderful long lashes I had and too bad they were wasted on me.  Wasted?  On me?  Is that what I am, a waste, to be thrown out with the rest of the trash?  Maybe that is why I won the “Miss Trash” contest a couple of years ago.  Oh well, pucker up, return a smile.  My lips look like my sister’s, rather thin.  I can use the lip liner to make them look fuller but not much.  Now I must remember to curve the liner up at the corners of my mouth.  That’s it, create at least a hint of a smile, try to look happy.  Surprise!  There are not a lot of lines around the mouth, even at my age.  What age is that?  My wife tells me that I should dress my age.  Am I so old that I can’t wear fashionable clothing?  I like my skirts and dress length to cut just at the top of my knee.  She used to tell me that my best feature was my legs.  So, what do I consider my age?  What happened to the girl in her teens?  Where did the young woman in her 20’s and 30’s, looking for a career, go?  Was she ever there visible and not seen?  Am I to be my own grandma?
There is only the lip gloss to go.  Look, look deep!  What is it that I see; a mask or a mirror?  Is this a mask hiding my maleness?  Think of all those lives that I’ve lived and touched; a real family guy and bread winner, Boy Scout leader,  soldier (airman really), university administrator, teacher, church deacon; everyone who has known the “real” me.  Look closer!  Can this not be a mirror, a mirror of what could be or could have been?  Is this a mirror of what my soul cries out?  What is real, mask or mirror, neither or both?  Who am I?
By: Suasann Irene Simms
SPEAKING OF MASK OR MIRROR
Why do so many members of the Transgendered Community, wear a mask to hide their, hidden agendas
To express, themselves in one way, but have,  fetishes, denigration, and filth, in their lives?
I WILL SAY THIS ONE MORE TIME.   WE WILL, AND CAN NEVER BE, NATAL WOMEN
We have a right to identify ourselves as women, but, WE DO NOT HAVE THE RIGHT TO DECIEVE ANYONE!
Whether it be Religion, Posting, or other forms
And when these individuals express themselves as Advocates and Teachers, in our Community, need to show themselves, with respect, integrity to the Readers of their Life and Transition! Without deception.
And while,  I mentioned Religion
I want to make a statement !
In my life and transition, I have studied basically all the Religions, AND I RESPECT THEM ALL!
BUDISM, PROTASTANT, CATHOLIC, MENNONITE, MUSLIMS, MIDDLE EASTERN, AND A MANY, MANY,  OTHERS!
AND THIS IS MY CONCLUSION
All religions point to one thing!  A DIVINE ENTITY AND/OR BEING!     Maybe it is called God, Goddess or anything else, but they all point to one thing “LOVE”
The pathetic part is that some religions think that their religion, is better than any other, That their Religion has all the answers, but others don’t!
YADDA, YADDA, YADDA
ONE THING I HAVE LEARNED, WHEN YOU USE ANY RELIGION DO DECEIVE OTHERS, TO MAKE YOU SEEM, SOMETHING YOU ARE NOT!
THEN THE WRITING IS ON THE WALL………..
I unfortunately, and sadly, have seen so many of our Transgendered Sisters, kill themselves, because of all the issues above.
DO YOU CARE?
There was a young Trans person who was married.  Her wife initially was supportive.  However, one day she visited a site from a transgendered individual;, and not only saw that the person was Transgendered, but involved, in BDSM, other PERVISIONS, And the filth!
She told her husband that she was not going to invest in their relationship and wanted a divorce!
SHORTLY THERE AFTER,  SHE KILLED HERSELF !!!!!!!!!
WHY?  BECAUSE OF SOME OF YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SO WHAT IS IT?  MASK OR MIRROR
JAMIE LEE

APPROVE SAME SEX MARRAGE-THIS IS AMAZING-JAMIE LEE


WONDERFULLY STATED…………………………………….JAMIE LEE

JAMIE LEE’S CRYSTAL CONNECTION – STATEMENT TO THE WORLD


THE CRYSTAL CONNECTION

One thing that I promise to you, is that,  you will never know what you will see on my site !

The “Crystal Connection” was designed for Education and Excellence

I AND MY CRYSTAL CONNECTION AM PROUD TO PRESENT THE FOLLOWING “GREATEST SPEECH EVER SPOKEN”

ENOUGH IS TRULY ENOUGH !

Through Childhoods hour, I have not been as others were, I have not seen as others saw, I could not bring my passion’s from a common spring !

JAMIE LEE

TURN UP THE SOUND, MAKE THE SCREEN LARGE – AND HAVE THE COURAGE TO LISTEN………………………………………………….

JAMIE LEE


There once was a girl

Who felt her pain

She had a life, but had no name

I look at you

I know what you see ,when you look at me

I know, But do you know,  what’s inside?

The part of me that I must hide

That you, made me, hold deep, deep inside

Do you know what you’d see,  if you deeper inside of me?

DO YOU ?

I AM THERE !

I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THERE, AND THAT’S WHERE I WILL ALWAYS BE !

WHEN YOU LOOK INSIDE OF ME !

Do you have vision problems ? Do you?  Myopia, near-sightedness ?, Do you need glasses,  a magnifying glass, binoculars a telescope ?

WELL FIGHT IT !

LOOK DEEPER, LOOK GOD DAMN DEEPER !

I wouldn’t want you to miss out on a really Beautiful person !

AND WHEN YOU DON’T, YOU MADE ME CRY!

OR MADE ME DIE !

At times in my life when I feel severely handicapped can be pretty difficult for me to handle sometimes.

I mean my friends and loved ones don’t want to accept,  and go places with me because they are too embarrassed to be seen with me.

And people think I am stupid , because I don’t walk, talk and look like they do !

I am a lot smarter then you will ever know.

It’s not my fault, I was born this way!

No matter what we do together, we always have fun.

And when you see my smile, that’s how you know I LOVE YOU !

DO YOU KNOW WHAT ?

I AM NOT YOUR HANDICAP ! YOU ARE MINE !

Jamie Lee

Your son, Daughter, Wife, Husband, Doctor,  Lawyer, and Indian Chief

The person that,  some day may save your life !

THE CRYSTAL CONNECTION WELCOMES – 4,000 – FOUR THOUSAND VISITORS – FROM 59 – DIFFERENT COUNTRIES !


I am proud to announce that the Crystal Connection, has reached 4,000 visitors, from 51 Countries around the World.

I have published 177, posts, pertaining to GLBT Education and Acceptance.  My Crystal Connection stands for Freedom,  Acceptance of all people, races and religions.  I have worked in Law Enforcement to always protect the rights of others, the rights of others that were not afforded to me in my own transition.

I an my Crystal Connection, does not accept or promote the statement that ” Our Sexuality has to be without fault ! And that must function in strict conformity with all customs & laws !  No matter how illogical they are. and how much hypocrisy they may give rise”!

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I PROMOTE ACCEPTANCE AND FREEDOM FOR ALL PEOPLE AROUND THE WORLD!

I PROMOTE ENDING DISCRIMINATION, BULLYING, INTOLLERANCE. SEXISM, RACISM !

I BELIEVE IN RELIGIOUS FREEDOMS.

I PROMOTE EGALITARIAN PEOPLE, WHO HAVE EGALTARIAN, IDEAS ABOUT GENDER !

I WILL CONTINUE TO EDUCATE AND ADVOCATE, FOR THE GLBT COMMUNITY AND OUR FREEDOMS.  I WILL CONTINUE TO EDUCATE ABOUT THE INTERSEXED COMMUNITY.

CRYSTAL CONNECTION NON-DISCRIMINATION POLICY – 2-26-2013

I AM MY CRYSTAL CONNECTION – PROHIBIT DISCRIMINATION AGAINST, AND HARRASSMENT,

OF ANYONE BECAUSE OF RACE, COLOR, NATIONAL OR ETHNIC ORIGIN,

AGE, RELIGION, SEX, SEXUAL ORIENTATION,

GENDER IDENTITY & EXPRESSION !

There will be zero tolerance for sites that show or promote, hidden agendas, moralistic behavior, BDSM, pornography, lewd or lascivious behaviur, she-male, sissyfication,  clown porn or any disrespectful photos. 

ADVOCATCY  & EDUCATION

I have be an Advocate in the Transgendered Community for approximately 15 years, during my transition.  I attended Renaissance Transgendered support groups and even taught at them.  I have attended numerous Transgendered Conferences in the Eastern Region of Pa.  I have previously ran a Transgendered support group in the Past.  I have experience in psychology, criminal justice, Domestic Violence, Child abuse, Rape, Stalking,  and much, much more.

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RESPONSIBILITIES OF A TEACHER AND ADVOCATE IN THE GLBT-INTERSEX COMMUNITY

AS AN ADVOCATE YOU MUST BE AWARE OF WHO YOU ARE TALKING TOO.  IS IT A WIFE, SIGNIFICANT OTHER, SON, DAUGHTER, OR FRIEND OF THE TRANSGENDERED INDIVIDUAL.  YOU MUST BE SENSITIVE OF THE AGE, AND GENDER.  SUICIDE IS HIGH IN OUR COMMUNITY, SO YOU MUST INSURE THAT YOU PROVIDE ACCURATE FACTS, AVIOD OPINIONS.  WE MUST REALIZE AT ALL TIMES, WE DON’T KNOW WHO IS READING OUR STORIES.

WE MUST INSURE THAT WE PROVIDE NOTHING BUT FACTS AND REALISTIC STORIES ALONG WITH EDUCATION.

MY QUALIFICATIONS

COLLEGE VILLANOVA AND PENN STATE, CRIMINAL JUSTICE, PSYCHOLOGY, DOMESTIC VIOLENCE, OCCULT, RAPE, CHILD MOLESTATION, MEGAN’S LAW, OUT LAW MOTORCYCLE CLUBS, INVESTIGTIONS, SEARCH AND SEIZURE, CURTURAL AWARENESS, RACEST GROUPS, FEMALE OFFENDERS IN TREATMENT, MH/MR ISSUES, GLBT SUPPORT AND ADVOCACY, CLOSE QUARTERS COMBAT, PRESSURE POINT CONTROL, AND MUCH,  MUCH MORE.   I TAUGHT COLLEGE CLASSES, I AM A CERTIFIED TRAINER IN ANTI TERRIORISM.  I WAS A PRIVATE DETECTIVE, ALONG WITH 30 YRS LAW ENFORCEMENT. 

THE FIRST CHAPTER OF MY UPCOMMING BOOK WAS COMPLETED BY: WRITER, PLAYWRITE, AND AUTHOR. LISA BUFFINGTON !

SHE AND I ARE TEAMING UP FOR A PROJECT IN PUBLIC SPEAKING, WHICH WILL COVER MANY TOPICS, INCLUDING GLBT, INTOLLERANCE, DISCRIMINATION AND ALOT MORE !

I HAVE BEEN RECENTLY RECRUTED BY A MODELING AGENCY, AS A MODEL, ACTOR,  AND VOICE OVER.  I HAVE ATTENDED THE PA. MODEL & TALENT EXPO, ON CAMERA WORKSHOPS, ETC.

FINALLY I MAKE THIS OFFER.  IF ANYONE THAT VISITS MY CRYSTAL CONNECTION,  HAS ANYONE, HUSBAND, WIFE, CHILD, SIGNIFICANT OTHER, WHO NEEDS HELP, REFERENCES, SUPPORT, OR ADVICE.

PLEASE CONTACT ME

Jamie Lee – Crystal Connection

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